Struggles

We all have our struggles and crosses to bear.  I have stiches in my hand that are driving me half totally crazy.  Nothing seems to help…except ice and elevation…one night I even took one of those poop stopping pain pills…I was desperate to be pain free to sleep. I figured if one stopped me up at least I was pain free for four hours…and eventually I would poop again.  Thank goodness just one had no effect!!!

I am tired. I bawl at the drop of a hat. I am cranky…yet I am not in a forest fire or a hurricane ..SO I should quit the bitchin…suck it up and put my big girl panties on and not rip out the fourteen stitches in my hand by myself.  ( I could start and remove a few and then Far Guy will have to help me finish.)

If I were a dog I would certainly have bitten them to release the torturous things. I would have to wear that doggie cone of shame because I could not be trusted if I were a dog.

Life would be easier if I WERE A DOG.

I am beginning to think that I am allergic to those stitches and what ever else they used to close up that incision.  It hurts, it itches…I am done bitching now…the stitches will be gone in a few more hours. I can do it…maybe.  I wonder how many minutes it is until then?

This is a photo my baby brother sent me from Houston.  He works there. He wrote “ I had a leaky garage ceiling, no significant issues. Some folks down the street not so much see the photo…”  He was away from Houston during Hurricane Harvey and returned after Labor Day.

Happy New Year!

Time to turn over the calendar.  Begin again..make new “to do” lists..some of which are repeats from last year.   Clean out the cupboards and drawers..organize..those things end up on my list every year. BORING. I had a “to do” list and I was working on it before I was interrupted by Christmas. 

I did not make any resolutions this year.

BUT If I were to make some these would be real high on my list:

I should be more patient and kind to stupid irritating people.

I should answer the phone cheerfully as if I really give a crap about the person on the other end of the line. ( My other baby brother says I should practice this one everyday.  Sometimes he even calls twice in a row just to check and see how damn cheerful I sound.)

I should be more willing to drop all of my projects and tend to all so called emergencies that wouldn’t be emergencies if some people had their poop in a pile.

I should be calm and understanding when Far Guy forgets his pills all day long and is in terrible pain…ding..ding..ding..if he feels rotten it might be he FORGOT his pills..not one dose..but several.

I should be tolerant of all kinds of different behaviors..like when the checkout lady at the grocery store stops to blow her nose really loudly and her tiny little Kleenex can’t catch it all so she wipes her hands on her pants..I shouldn’t cringe ..next time before choosing a checkout line I am going to observe the checkout gals..if they look like they are getting a cold..I am not going in their line.  If someone notices me observing from afar..I will just say “I am looking for the least germy one.”

I should not think badly of people because they bathe in perfume or aftershave instead of water.  They have obviously lost their sense of smell, or destroyed it with their spritzes and splashes of toilet water..or perfume de skunk.

I should be cheerful and understanding especially when I  have declared a time out on the couch for a whole hour and I am interrupted half a dozen times during that hour. After all talking with me might just be the highlight of a miserable day.

Yesiree..that would be a partial list if I were a resolution making kind of gal.

Happy New Year! :)

Antique Greeting Postcard

Bad Day Tuesday

Sometimes do you feel like the wind has been taken out of your sails?  That you just need to rest for a bit. STOP the whole freaking world ..I just want to get off this crazy ride.  I just need to bury my head under a pillow and tomorrow will be a better day.  I barely have the energy to bitch and moan properly.

That freaking overpaid government employee that is supposed to deliver our mail called AGAIN before 8AM, he has a package for me..what should he do with it..well you can just imagine what I woulda told him ..but Far Guy intercepted the phone call.  Far Guy will drive to town and get the offending package..what a poor excuse for a mail man..he whines more than I do. 

Today might be a bad day…perhaps it was the TWO Root Canals I endured yesterday…feeling like a red hot poker was being stabbed into my sinus cavity..or maybe it was the antibiotic solution the dripped down and set my tongue on fire.  Perhaps it was paying the bill, for something that may or may not work..as the infection was widespread..and the drainage hole in my upper gum is now draining some vile crap..perhaps it is the swelling that makes me talk funny..perhaps I just need a time out.  I know that my ability to cope is non-existent today.

I am going back to bed..tomorrow will be a better day.  Maybe I just need to load up on Aleve or Advil, or some of Far Guys good stuff that knocks me out.

I WILL be fine..just not today:(   

Traffic

Who gave these people permission to drive on my road anyway, they ruined a perfectly good photo. This is a spot in the road where I like to stop and take a photo of the empty road and the surrounding fields.

 If I really zoom in with the camera it looks like this road is part roller-coaster. It used to be worse..small children who were inclined to be car sick would sometimes feel their tummies being tickled by the road..I believe it was Tami who came up with that saying..a long time ago, and now my Grand-girls use the same tummy tickling to describe the ride ..except some of them request "Drive really fast Grandma."

This road is in the opening chapters of Red Earth, White Earth, since I didn't see the movie I don't know if it was depicted correctly in the film or not.

For me it is just the road home, away from traffic, even if it is only a car or two, most people who I know anyway..who wave and smile, so I wave and smile back through clenched teeth..I like having the road all to myself:)